world of my own would be wonderland :)

tears dropped when i hear this song.

miaamelia — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 14:43:59 +0000

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I’m all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I’m not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here’s my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Dear God

miaamelia — Wed, 21 Dec 2011 15:57:25 +0000

Dear God,
the only thing i ask of You
is to hold him when i’m not around
when i’m much too far away.
We all need that person who can be true to you
but i left him when i found him.
And now i wish i’d stayed.
’cause i’m lonely, and i’m tired
i’m missing you again,
once again.

I found you, something told me to stay.
I gave in, to selfish way.
and how i miss someone to hold,
when hope begins to fade..

Dear santa, i want him.

miaamelia — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 13:21:34 +0000

” i have loved you for a thousand years, i love you for a thousand more.”

3 days at Curug 7, Cilember, Bogor.

miaamelia — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 08:22:45 +0000

Last week, youth red cross smak gs went to Cilember, Bogor. in the morning, we had some kind of ceremony with bu etik, then we went straight to cilember. as soon as we got there, we loaded the things we brought from school to the camp area and suddenly it was raining. so we stood up tents as many as we can to putted the things in. then we did nothing but waited for the rain to stop. after the rain stopped, the seniors told the juniors to eat while the seniors were preparing for the first session. thanks God, we started the activity on time, even though we skipped the opening ceremony, too bad.

The first thing we did was the ice breaking games. the game was they as a team had to took 5 bottles for their drinks until dinner. the bottle was putted around 1.5m in front of them, so they had to held on to each other, and they must not fall. i’m on team kenny, but unfortunately the winner was team senna because they took the bottle faster than kenny’s-_- after that, they have the first session of first aid with kak reza.

At night, after we had eaten our dinner, juniors had their second session with randy, it was about HT, while the seniors were talking about the ‘jalan malam’. first, we planned that the juniors would have walked one by one. i was so worried and about to cried because the track was difficult to past after it rained, and the juniors would have past this ALONE! i didn’t agree with this idea, i had a bad feeling about this. when it’s time to woke the juniors up, on of the juniors was sick, she couldn’t make it to this activity. so we decided to matched them into partners. this made me feel better. next, me and edo walked to our stands to wait for the juniors to come. edo kept accompany me because he knew that i was worried about the juniors. when we were talking, suddenly randy was panic. he told the male seniors to came into the waterfall. immediately, i told edo to go with the only emergency lamp we had. so then he went off and here i was alone in the dark forest ._.

after awhile, someone told me that kenny and monique were lost. some of the female seniors stayed with the juniors so they wouldn’t know that their friends were lost. some others were searching for kenny and monique. after we were searching for like one hour, then suddenly kenny and monique appeared. they said that they took a wrong direction and stayed calm there, they couldn’t hear our voices calling their names until they decided to go back where they were supposed to be. thanks God they are saved.

The second and third day, we had lots of thing to do. the junior learnt how to evacuate a patient in the water and the seniors made the simulation. i loved to help them evacuate. they learnt how to pass ‘halang rintang’ such as lorong sempit, gorong-gorong, tebing, and serangan udara. the juniors are more energetic, powerful, and serious than i expected them to. i’m proud of them, and now they are officially a part of smak gs youth red cross :D

last week my life began (?)

miaamelia — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 13:28:20 +0000

i’ve just deleted some of last posts. it’s kinda pathetic if i read it again HAHA. and it’s a brand new day, a brand new month, a brand new year for me, and of course a brand new life. last week, i had my birthday, i’m sixteen y.o now :D
i’ve got lots of surprises from my bestfriends. pagi pagi jam 5 udah dibangunin papa katanya ada cindy di depan. LOL surprise nya failed udah keburu bangun duluan :p tp abis itu muka langsung dimaskerin pake kue, hape di bajak secara paksa x_x alright alright. trus pulang skolah dapet lagi dari jubris ting” linda liem tyas nick dan tepen. too bad yak gaada otong -_- teruuuuussss ini muka kena lagi sama kue x_x
another surprise dari edel, dia ngasih kado cuyyy, ga nyangkaaa :’3 so unyuuuu, sampe terharu, bener bener ga nyangka deh :””3

cant help it yaaa, i love my bestfriends so much :*
trus kemaren pas makan” di fish&co, astaga semua nya bener” malu”in, tapi seneng nya banget banget yaaa kemaren :D

tapiiii belakangan perasaan jadi ga karuan, kadang bisa seneng banget kadang nyesek nyesek gimana gitu. berusaha buat ga mikirin tapi mana bisa, masalahnya males yak ngapa”in pengen nya nyantai aja, tp gabisa nyantai tugas sama ulangan numpuk, gimana donggg? galau ini ga bisa ngapa”in, so many things to do, yet so little time. orang” kalo pada stress, sedih, depresi, galau, dll mah pada diem mellow” gitu, lah gue? malah gabisa diem, mau nya maen” mulu, becanda”, ketawa”, makan mulu.lebih parah nya lagi, jadi ga peduli, ga peka sama sekitar :( jadi cuek bangeeett, ini yg ga gua suka dr diri gua sendiri. kalo udah cuek ga ketolongan dari dulu.

“you turn my whole life so blue,
drowning me so deep,
i just cant reach my self again.
you successfully tore my heart,
now it’s only pieces,
nothing left but pieces of you.”

alright, jadi udah 16 nih, mau jadi orang yg lebih baik lagi, peduli sama temen” mama papa hans mitha semuanya. mau bisa masuk FKUI, mau jadi lebih dewasa, mau bisa lebih jaga kata”, mau ngga lemot lagi, mau jadi rajin, mau jadi yg terbaik buat semua pkknya. aminnnn yak aminnnnn :)

miaamelia — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 15:23:34 +0000

‘cause when you’re standing on your own
and you feel you’ve got nobody around you
yeah you know i’ll be the one who helps you from your knees
when you’re standing on your own
and you feel you’ve got nobody round you
yeah you know i’ll be the one who helps you from your knees
my hearts on fire
my hearts on fire

yaya .____.

miaamelia — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 13:51:27 +0000

Your ex texted you and wanted you back. Would you take him/her back? no.

Has anyone told you “forever and ever” then left? yeah.

Your relationship status? in a relationship.

Where did you meet your crush(es)? at school, maybe anywhere (?)

Have you ever lost a close friend? yeah

Do you smoke weed regularly? no.

Think back to the beginning of 2011. Are you still dating the same person? yeah.

Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship? no.

When was the last time you really laughed? about 3 hours ago.

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did? yeah.

Angry at anyone? kinda.

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like? hypocrisy

When was the last time you cried really hard? yesterday.

Is there anyone you would do anything for? sort of.

Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 minutes on the phone? nadia, i think ._.

What is your favorite song? currently is you-ten2five

Do you like Red Bull? no

How many people can you tell just about everything to? no one actually

Have you ever wished on a shooting star? no, i’ve never seen a shooting star, pity ._.

Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you? everyone i held does mean something :)

Describe yourself in one word. “reckless”

Do you have anything that belongs to your ex? his heart (?) lol! no.

Can you honestly say you’ve had a sleepover with the opposite gender? while on ldk, yeah .__.

Do you rebound? Ever cheated on someone? no.

What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship? move on :)

Do you act differently around the person you like? no.

Honestly, what guy’s number do you have memorized? idk, forget.

Is it hard to make you laugh? no :D

Who was the last person to make you mad? idk, forget.

Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again? no.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms? my dad’s :D

Has anyone ever called you scrumptious before? lol. no

Would you like to put a night on repeat and live it forever? yeah.

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out? yeah.

Is your best friend a slut? no.

Is hard drugs a turn off? no.

Are you happy with life right now? yeah :)

Are you still in love with your ex? no.

Have you ever been the “other person” in a relationship? no.

Have you ever had your heart broken? yeah.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart? yeah.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in? yeah.

Where is your best friend? in my heart :”>

Something you’re happy about? everything :)

How is your heart lately? fragile.

miaamelia — Sat, 13 Aug 2011 16:28:05 +0000

“it means that i care enough to fight for what we have and that i love enough not to let go.” :(

it’s a new season (?)

miaamelia — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 14:49:42 +0000

summer vacation is over! yeaaaa telat banget -__- last holiday i went to japan. it’s kinda kids tour, we visited lots of theme park, such as disneysea, disneyland, hello kitty land, universal stuidio, ext. ooh! can’t forget about FUJIKYU things! there’s a roller coaster around 2km long, i had a ride on it. it’s so EFFINNN’ FUN! kinda like “seru nya ga abis abis”!!! FUJIKYU itu kaya tempat roller coaster yg extremely extreme! ada yg diputer” macem begitu, tp tempat duduk nya juga muter, you know kaya di puter 2x gitu jadi nya. hoekkk ga deh kalo yg udah muter” -.- ada yg baru tp blm bisa dimainin, kaya turun nya bukan lurus lagi tp melengkung ke dalem, yeaaa gila aja deh. trus” ada yg cepet banget sampe suara pas mulai nya kenceng ga nyante kaya bom, i wanna try out, tp berhubung i have no money, and ga enak minta papa beliin tiket terusan yg rada banyak (fyi: 3x maen/orang harganya 2000 yen, jd kira” 200rban gitu). jadi cuma maen satu yg 2km itu sama papa dan hans. OH HELL YEAAHHH! puas banget banget!!!

about disney sea, it’s kinda disappointing, i had to queue like around 2 hours to play haunted mention, and it sucks! i feel like i wanna collapsed! gaada serem” nya, cuma kaya macem hysteria tp lebih gede dan pendek, cups abis -,- the only thing i love about disney sea is the venice-wannabe and the little mermaid thingy. OH GOSH i wanna go to venice *dying*! next disneyland, i prefer HK disney land than the japan one. i bought 2-exactly-the-same-t-shirts for me and nick, it’s black and got mickey’s face and butt on it, but there’s no tulisan “tokyo disney resort japan”, yeaaaa dodol udah di beli baru nyadar kan jadi ga berasa dr jepang -,-

and the last! UNIVERSAL STUDIO! i’ve never been to any US, even in singapore, my dad keeps talking about “belom lengkap belom lengkap, nanti aja ye”. i’ve played most of the attractions, it’s nice there, not too crowded. i played the jurassic park thing, i got wet, my cardigan’s wet, my hair’s wet, and thanks GOD i brought my errr scarf? idk what to call that thing. so i put my cardigan on my bag and wear that-almost-scarf. TARA! i felt better with that thing. anw, i loveeeee jurassic park, kinda addicted, i bought a bag, and i want that t-rex shirt!!! :’( about a dino thing, my mom used to scare me with a dino doll when i was little, it really looks like a real dino and it can RAWR too! dan sampe skrng gua masih takut sama suara RAWR nya dino, tp tetep cinta mati sama dino :’)

DONE with nippon, done with my first year of shs, and i SURVIVED! welcome second year! kalo inget” pas smp, pas taun ke dua itu paling enak, ada kakak kelas ada ade kelas. and i’ll miss my senior, not the graduated one, the other one, mungkin karna gua ada beberapa close friend juga, di pmr, ada yg dr pml, jadi bisa dibilang deket. kalo di pmr, deketnya sih deket banget, kalo junior liat mereka pasti gabisa bedain yg mana kelas 11 mana 12. i feel like a part of them, like a family, and thank God they feel the same too! cinta mati mati deh sama mereka! gimana ya rasanya kalo gaada mereka, taun depan, when they graduate from shs, pasti bakal sedih banget”.

new class. i’m speechless. pertama masuk krik banget, mana suara lagi toa” nya gara” pmr. cowo” di kelas rada” freak, gua cuma tau 5 doang kali pas pertama masuk. sisanya yg rada” gitu, dan gue dapet pasangan lab bio sama yg masih ngmng aku kamu dan suara nya cempreng banget, damn ilfeel abis.. nah! untungnya aku sekelas sama si juneet! maen bareng sama anak baru si ting” sama linda, irene, dan yenni. yeaaa asik ga ansos. then, i realized to practice my english more and more, before lebaran i will have a toefl test, 900 vocabs! i need to learn more about grammar, practice my reading and speaking. i need to speak english more often, maybe with my dad, my mom, my bro or sist? like whoever yg penting ngmng lah. and unfortunately, my english teacher at school sucks, her voice is soooo indescribable, it makes my ears hurt really. i never understand what she’s talking about, she talks like belibet banget bertele tele. you need to practice your speaking too ma’am, cause you’re talking like you’re translating bahasa to english -__- i dislike her, definitely, and i miss you ms.vita :* (sorry for my horrible grammar).

rite, enough for my post, it’s too long i think. k, bye ;)

10.08.2011

09.50 pm

miaamelia :)

every women

miaamelia — Mon, 08 Aug 2011 15:01:39 +0000

“Every woman should know how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.

Every woman should know that her childhood may not have been perfect, but it’s over.

Every woman should know that she can’t change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents.

Every woman should know how to fall in love without losing herself.

Finally, every woman should know when to try harder… and when to walk away.”

and i choose to try harder, give my very best, until God tells me to stop.